“…the part of ourselves we hate the most is our longing to be wanted and enjoyed.”
Dan B. Allendar
In the deepest part of me lies a dragon. I do well to keep it at bay most days. But sometimes it emerges. In my relationships. In my marriage. In my activity. The dragon’s name is “Insecurity”.
Let’s just think about this for a moment this morning.
What is security?
Security is more than just an emotion. It is a state of stability. It is a place where you feel no fear, no doubt, and no concern for the stability of your life.
When something is secure, it is safe…locked away…unmoveable (unless movement is allowed).
A secure heart is confident, unhurried, unworried, and stable. It can be counted on, trusted, and seen as something worth following. A heart and mind secured will prove to be a strong tower where people in your life can run to and not worry about being moved.
We need secure hearts in our world today.
We do not live in a world where the heart is secure do we?
I do not live out of a strong sense of stability most days because I choose not to anchor my own heart in unmoveable, unchanging, truth.I do not live out of a strong sense of stability because I choose not to anchor my own heart in truth. Click To Tweet
This past week, I became insecure. I doubted who I was, and I doubted those around me. I became unstable in my heart because my circumstances became hectic, busy, uncontrollable. The waves of activity besieged me and I became so consumed with trying to keep everything spinning that I allowed some important things to fall by the wayside.
The deepest longing of my heart is to return to the mountain of stability that is my rock and foundation…Jesus Christ. I get so busy living my life, listening to all the voices that continue to try and speak into my heart who I am…and I forget….
I forget that Jesus is my anchor.
I forget that time with Him is more than just going through religious motions of Bible reading and prayer.
I forget that He asks for my whole heart, not just the pieces I want to give Him.
I forget grace.
I forget to extend grace to others in my life.
I forget to calm myself down, be silent, give up control.
I forget to stop living for the applause of humanity.
I forget the beauty and the wonder of the gifts He’s given me.
I forget that those around me are simply human like me, fallible, broken, and sometimes deeply wounded and insecure people like myself.
And so… today… at the start of a new week… I will return.
I will return to my first love.
I will return to the fierce love I once had for those I do life with in my home.
I will return to a place of security.
I will will return to the fight and restore the damage I have done in my relationships.
I will return to not seeking approval from those around me.
I will return to relinquishing control over my own life and work hard to work alongside the Spirit of God as He works ahead of, in, and around me as I do life.
I will return.
I will fight the dragon and alongside the Spirit that works mightily in me… I will defeat him.
“Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm.”